While I am reflecting, I am honestly shocked at myself, and the amount of change that a person and a whole life can change in the space of a year. People who know me well know my least favourite saying is "life is short". I mean, what the fuck are you gonna do thats longer than be alive? I know a memory or a deed can last forever but an action? No, life is NOT short... it is as long as it has to be. And this year has made me realise how much more you can fit into it.
If I have learnt anything this year (and I have, I have learnt heaps) its that things can change in the blink of an eye, and I believe the key to being happy and healthy is to be flexible and accepting of change. This has been the biggest and most rewarding lesson for me in 2012.
January
I have no idea what I was doing in January. Someone might be able to help me out here... I'm guessing I was job searching, because I was really unhappy working for Neco Holding (who met a fateful end - more to come) and was always on the lookout for a better and more rewarding job.
I don't even remember what I did for New Year... Was it this year that I was ay Viv and Vron's? I have no clue.
I have no idea where this was taken or why - but I uploaded it to the comp in January. |
February
Again, no idea. I know I was still working. Just cruising along and my snail pace. If I have missed something epic please tell me because my memory has failed. I know I went to the Southern 80 with Elene, which is always the best part of Feb. I'm shattered I am missing out next year. Oh well.
Actually, in Feb I started Karate. Now, everyone gives me a fair bit of shit about this, but worked really hard to try and learn the katas, and I really enjoyed going. And when I get home I will hopefully start it up again. If not karate then some other martial art thing... It's good to know how to defend yourself and also for fitness.
Moving on...
March
Ah... This was when the winds of change started blowing. Poetic huh? But true none the less. The company I was working for, Neco, went into voluntary administration. Bankrupt. Myself and everyone else made redundant. There is no point going into what happened but the bottom line was many people ended up unemployed. It was one of the years defining moments, and the day we finished up will stay in my memory forever.
we got to work a bit later than usual, because everyone knew it was the end. We had done no work that week (it was a Wednesday) and we knew that this week would be the last. I assumed it would be Friday though... Anyway, our boss called us all upstairs and he gave us the news, said we had to clear out our desks and be off premises by 12pm. He gave us an info pack full of stuff related to government entitlements and whatever. Also letters of recommendation and other things. It was a nice gesture, one that I appreciate more now than I did at the time. He even let us raid the online store before we left. I remember leaving the office and going to have a coffee with a work friend... The whole thing was surreal. Still kinda is, in a distant way.
I took at least 25 Neco mugs from the online store, as well as various other bits and pieces. I have no clue why I took the mugs...
Anyway, March saw me without a job.
I also went to Torquay with the team, which was fun. We went over the Labour Day weekend. I took Billie to her first horse show, where she placed in her first ever led class. I know it was just a small show but it meant something to me.
One of my best friends, Sarah, got engaged and asked me to be her bridesmaid. Well, this actually happened earlier, but the engagement party was at the end of March.
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Me and Billie at Doongala |
Dan, Kirst and Nay at Torquay |
April
I had another friends engagement party, Louise. Her and her fiance live around the corner from me and I love it. (seeing a trend yet?)
In March I had started delivering flowers for Darren's Flowers, but I started to pick up more work in April. I was still looking for work at the time, something in my field of study (I was looking for something in sustainability) but with no luck. My beautiful and amazing step-mum Sue asked me if I would like to work on her business with her to which I replied with a resounding YES! This led to the next defining moment of 2012. My trip to Sydney.
Sydney
On the 29th I went to Sydney. I flew out in the morning and came back in the late evening the following day. I went to attend a workshop with the Green Building Council of Australia, to get a better understanding of the Green Star Energy Rating system. The original plan was that myself and Sue were going to go to Sydney for the weekend and have a bit of a girly trip away and fly home after I attended the conference.
Misfortune soon struck and Sue had to fly to Perth to be with her sick mother. This left me with 2 options - pick another weekend to do the course (both me and Sue were looking forward to the time) or go alone.
I did NOT want to go by myself. I hate being alone and change scares the shit out of me. I hate meeting new people and I don't like trying to make new friends. I had not been to Sydney since the Olympics, and what the hell would I do with myself for 24-48 hours? But something made me go anyway...
Now, everyone knows I am not a religious person, but I honesty felt that there was some sort of divine intervention at work, because there is no way I would have made that decision otherwise. I am the opposite of independent (dependent on everyone and everything to be honest) yet here I was deciding to go to Sydney alone and do this course.
Dad dropped me at the airport and off I went. I arrived in Sydney, shitting myself (not literally thank God) and made my way to the hotel via a shuttle bus that dropped me at the door. The hotel was beautiful, right on the Harbour. From my room I could see the Opera House. I spent that afternoon wandering around Circular Quay and visiting markets and galleries. I took touristy pics of the Bridge and the Opera House. It was one of the best afternoons I have had in ages. I had never felt so completely free.
The course the next day was a little dull but enjoyable enough. No one good looking though...
Afterwards, I went to get my bags, get changed and get dinner. I caught the airport train to the airport his time, and didn't get lost. I boarded the plane, flew into Melbourne and dad and Sue picked me up from the airport. I grabbed my car from their place and drove home, had a chat with mum and went to bed with Pawpaw at my feet. Back to normal...
But something had changed. I didn't know what, but I felt I had changed somehow - I wanted something more.
Another highlight of April was that I broke Billie to saddle, and rode my pony for the first time. April was a big month.
More to come, as I collect my thoughts :)
xoxo